There is a version of me that people still remember…
A version of me that smiled a certain way,
showed up a certain way,
carried herself in a way that felt familiar to everyone else…
But that version of me…
doesn’t fully exist anymore.
And for a long time,
I didn’t know how to feel about that.
Because letting go of who you used to be…
is not as easy as people make it sound.
THE SHIFT
Motherhood didn’t just change my routine…
It changed me.
It changed how I see myself.
How I move through the world.
What I care about.
What I no longer have the energy to pretend about.
And yet…
There were moments I found myself trying to hold on
to the old version of me…
Trying to show up the way I used to,
trying to meet expectations that no longer fit,
trying to keep parts of myself alive
that were quietly asking to be released.
THE DISCOMFORT
No one really talks about this part…
The uncomfortable space between who you were
and who you are becoming.
It’s confusing.
It’s emotional.
Sometimes it even feels like loss.
Because even if you needed to grow…
even if the change is good…
You still have to grieve the version of you
that you once knew so well.
And that part?
That part is not easy.
LETTING GO (WITHOUT GUILT)
I’m learning… slowly…
That I don’t have to carry every version of myself with me.
I don’t have to keep showing up in ways that no longer feel true…
just because that’s what people expect.
I don’t have to explain my growth
to people who are still attached to who I used to be.
And I don’t have to feel guilty
for becoming someone new.
Because growth is not betrayal.
Change is not failure.
And evolving…
is not something I need to apologize for.
🌼 WHERE I AM NOW
I am softer in some ways.
Stronger in others.
More intentional.
More aware.
More protective of my peace.
I am still learning.
Still unlearning.
Still becoming.
And maybe that’s the beauty of it…
Not having everything figured out,
but still choosing to move forward anyway.
If you’ve been feeling like you don’t recognize yourself anymore…
Maybe it’s not because you’re lost.
Maybe it’s because you’re growing.
Maybe it’s because the version of you that you’ve been holding onto…
was never meant to stay forever.
And maybe…
you are simply becoming someone new.
If this spoke to you, you’re not alone 🤍
This space is for mothers who are learning, growing, and becoming… one day at a time.
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